
Because I wasn't. I was very cavalier. I was looking at my children as I was tucking them into bed, thinking how much I loved them, that I wouldn't trade an awful day with them for a million good days without them. And I asked the dumbest question: "Would you trade me in on a new mommy?"
A) Who in their right mind asks that question and B) who in their right mind would respond with a yes even if they are thinking yes?
An overly honest 3-year-old, that's who.
Jack, my very sweet, very earnest, overly loving, family centric almost 5-year-old immediately said "No! You're the best mommy in the whole world!"
See, this kid understands the point of fishing for compliments.
Ellie, with nearly no hesitation said, "Hmmmm. I'd take Parker's mommy. Parker has lots of dress up clothes and jewelery and when I cry, you scream at me!"
Clarification: Ellie is prone to massive screaming tempter tantrums over the most mild offenses and yes, she does get in trouble for them.
I looked at her and said, "Really, you'd trade me in and go live at Parker's house for better dress up clothes?"
"Yep. I can't wait to go live with my new mommy!"
(Picture now Jack freaking out, insisting that the same mommy and daddy are the most important thing in the world, that he would be lonely if she left. He insisted I tell her she couldn't go. Jack takes these kinds of things very seriously.)
I think I was a little stunned, because I asked her again if she really wanted to move.
She then started to plan what she would put in her suitcase.
It was a dumb dumb dumb question that I should not have asked. It was actually born of a moment of happiness as I pondered how much I loved them -- and the little turkey would trade me in. It shouldn't hurt my feelings, but it did a little.
Bob's take on it is thus: I said something making her think that such a thing was an option. From a position of trust and love, she thought I was making a serious offer. Looking at her friends, she chose her favorite and was playing a game with mommy from a position of trust and love.
Jack is two years older and saw right through it. I wonder who he would have traded me in for?
Oh well. Hopefully she will forget her moving plans by the morning.
Turkey or no, she's my daughter and I'm keeping her.
But I'll work on yelling a little less.